So I write in my journal at my kitchen table:
December 18, 2010 8:00 a.m. Saturday...This date is a sad date--the day my Mom died. I do miss her and there are lots of--"wish I had been betters"-but I know my Mom loved me and I loved her. I wish her and Dad could have seen their grandkids grow. And I stop and fix my tea and the boys some cinnamon raisin toast and the song "Let me watch my children grow and see what they become and as I ___(this would be where I just hum because I forgot the words)__ till I'm too old to die young." But I realize that when it is my time, it is my time. I know that when I go I will go to a better place and you know--I feel those that have gone on before--know what their children and grandchildren BECOME--and how do you "BECOME"? Do we ever even stop "coming" and just BECOME!
|My Mom (Peggy) and Grandma (Bessie) Jammin...|
So I am not mourning today but am thankful that I had my Mom and Dad as long as I did. And I have had different people tell me how they miss my folks and I think...you know that is something special to have as part of your legacy...that you are missed.
I have a picture of my Mom and a friend of hers in her later years...high fiving and I smile as that is one of the pictures in my heart...HIGH FIVING LIFE!
As I am finishing this up Ray Price breaks out singing ain't it "FUNNY HOW TIME SLIPS AWAY". And he says "Gotta go now...hope to see you round"...You know you just gotta love MUSIC!