Sunday, October 28, 2012

My own boo at the zoo...

So the little "cookie monster princess" should be at the "Boo at the Zoo" in her little cookie monster with a princess flare at the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo...I hope to have pics but her Uncle Andooo may not let any pictures be taken!   (So I stole this off of facebook...HAHA Andooooo)    Has to be the cutest cookie monster I have ever seen.  When asked what she was going to be she told her mom something blue...something like cookie monster...

Oh I love that face...what a cute Cookie Monster!
Quite the Cheeeeezer!
I think the giraffe is trying to steal her cookies!!!!
Anyway though not as cute here on the "funny farm" it still was a beautiful fall day all the same!   Lance was down for the weekend and before he headed home we had some lunch--"pot roast" or "pot luck" as some call it...LUCKY TO HAVE SOMETHING TO THROW IN THE POT!!!    But it seemed extra good today...cooked the roast with fresh garlic and onions...then added potatoes and carrots.   Just hit the spot...Even made some garlic bread from the homemade bread made yesterday...along with a salad with yes a tomato that is still hanging in there from the shepherds stash!  (My cinnamon rolls still need some work).

So nothing against you Chief and Cowboy fans...BUT football was not that great and so the shepherd and I decided to take a walk and enjoy this beautiful fall day!   I decided to grab my "shooter" because you never know what you might come across...

Well it was an adventure to say the I take you on the journey with pictures...

In the wild behind the house...I call it a silver cottonwood...but the leaves hang on...
This one did not make it...but thought was cool all the same.
Being the keen tracker that I appears that sticks have been on the move.
A shepherd and farm dog in their natural habitat...
No not a porcupine...close...a yucca...where farmland and prairie meet...
Stopped to take a pic of the stubble...when the "eagle-eye" shepherd caught site...
Can you see it?  Yes Jeff this is when I have a little zoom envy!!!
How about I will use my ZOOOM for you...

Yes DEER...can you see it now...

And that is the last I seen as two of them ran off...
And so then there I was...walking along with the shepherd when he says well there's a skunk...yes we both thought that he was dead and he says you better get a picture at which time the dead skunk comes these are true action shots as I begin running as I am clicking...but do you see where  our shadows were in relation...Perhaps not the adventure of my cousin Vonnie...her skunk story is too funny check it out...

Yes that would be BOO at the or maybe POO at the zoo...
And this is when the speed walking takes place...well for one of just checks out our find!
Must confess was glad to get  home to these wild animals!! 
Though they may stink in their own right...
if I keep my distance...I am safe! 

So I followed the shepherd around doing chores...yes I am officially fired from chores...but we did discuss how many babies he'll be I caught a shot of some of the sheep and decided in my own artistic way to make my own jack-o-lantern...yes the heads are the eyes!!!

So like I said kind of our own boo...but yes life is good here on the funny farm!  The shepherd and I are off tomorrow to get a check on the old knee...


Saturday, October 27, 2012

Sometimes a smell...

So perhaps the fall day...maybe my son coming home...maybe because there is a coolness in the air...but today I decided to make "hamburger rolls".   I suppose some might call them bierocks but these not are with cabbage or kraut...Actually these had different fillings depending on the customer.

My mom made the best hamburger rolls and she actually passed that gift on to my son...however, I did not have him make them.   Tim brought me some Montana flour and I mixed up my bread dough.  The smell just made me think so of my mom.    She made the best bread...and funny how the smell of bread dough could bring back just a feeling of "home".   Maybe that's why I worked on this pic actually is my front porch and the original of it has some really cool light...but I instead played with it...

So I took some pics as I was working on my hamburger rolls...first I mixed up the bread dough.   I love how bread dough feels when it is the right texture and how you can work it over and over again just to watch it rise once more...because part of the trick is in working the dough...I love the Tupperware recipe and the lid popping off...
As I had separate orders...I made Izzy and Ty's first...NO ONIONS AND PEPPERS!    So I cooked the hamburger separate from the green chili's and onions.    Since they are more the cheeseburger fan, I put American cheese on theirs.   I also had made them smaller...later to have Lance come in and say who taught you to make hamburger rolls...though I did help Mom...I did not have the memory of such how big.
Once these were done I combined the hamburger, green chili's and onions.   Since Lance likes no cheese and extra chili's I decided to doctor his up and also add some bacon for something different...


I diced these up and then added them with the hamburger and rolled on the dough...and then when finished I made the rest with cheddar cheese, the hamburger/green chili/onion the time I was putting these together...actually Lance made it in to tell me that they should be bigger they were...
So as I am finishing this up...I get a message pop up that says something like xoiea[ifnieaop;sdkpaioefn...that is Izzy talk.  So I asked what she was which she told her mom, "tell her I in bed."   I then told her and her translator that I had made Izzy some hamburger rolls and a hot dog roll and cinnamon which she said, "Tell her to bring them right now."   So I am finishing this up so I can at least send her pictures...and Izzy better get to sleep so you can BOO at the ZOO tomorrow!!  

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Happy Birthday Shepherd!

Had some other blogs I was working on...but decided to wish that shepherd that lives with me...A Happy Birthday and so thankful to have you in my life.   This past weekend we got to have one little IzzyBell while her mom got to go to Bethany's baccalaureate party in VEGAS.  

But anyway that is when I took these I love to watch one little Firecracker and her Oppy...she loves to help do chores...check cows...and Sveety of course!  I share one picture that I took that just melts my heart...

So Happy Birthday to my shepherd and know how much you are loved!!!  Love you and better get to bed...lyaaa

Wednesday, October 17, 2012


I have a friend Katie who talks of sometimes when those certain words or thoughts are brought to your attention as God talking "right out loud".   But this morning seemed to be over and over..and then again up side the just kidding but so amazing how such a theme just keeps continuing.  

When I first got there and started journaling...I had thought about how I sort of had a fear I guess and I write..."take away this anxiousness that comes upon me" regarding having to go to our final day of court for sentencing for the woman who did not tell the police officers that the man who killed Jay had a gun...     ANXIOUSNESS...not really a word I use that often...but that is what I put.

I look at my Kasey Jo calendar on my table...and it has Psalm 139:7 I think it was listed...but such a beautiful Psalm I read it all...and so there at the end is Psalm 139:23-24.   I put together another scripicture...

I look back at what I wrote on this scripture this morning at my kitchen table...

That one I say is my prayer but let me want to pray that…that I am not trying to hide from Your Presence Lord…It surrounds is a part of me…you see me more clearly than I see myself…not only do I try and hide from You…I tried to hide from me as well.   SEARCH ME, O GOD, AND KNOW MY HEART; You know my heart…do I?    TRY ME AND KNOW MY ANXIETIES; You know these that pull at me inside…let me give them to You as I cannot seem to handle them.   Release this anxiety from me… AND SEE IF THERE IS ANY WICKED WAY IN ME, and this I know that I hold wickedness…let me remember that Jesus died for my wickedness…am I willing to have You search my heart…AND LEAD ME IN THE WAY EVERLASTING…that is what I ultimately hope for…yet at times I do not always act as though that is it…I become consumed with the world around me…let me be consumed with You Lord…This world is not my home.  
This seems to be something I should include...but I go on to read my Jesus Calling devotional by Sarah Young for today...under today's date it reads...

ANXIETY IS A RESULT OF envisioning the future without Me.  So the best defense against worry is staying in communication with Me.  When you turn your thoughts toward Me, you can think much more positively.  Remember to listen, as well as to speak, making your thoughts a dialogue with Me.
If you must consider upcoming events, follow these rules: 1) Do not linger in the future, because anxieties sprout up like mushrooms when you wander there.  2) Remember the promise of My continual Presence; include Me in any imagery that comes to mind.  This mental discipline does not come easily, because you are accustomed to being god of your fantasies.  However, the reality of My Presence with you, now and forevermore, outshines any fantasy you could ever imagine.” 

Luke 12:22-26; Ephesians 3:20-21
And there it is again as though that is the word for the if it is surely something I should take note of...So I look up the scriptures that go with the reading and a favorite...or one that I seemed to seek out...

LUKE 12:22-26
“Then He said to His disciples, “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; nor about the body, what you will put on.  Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing.  Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap, which have neither storehouse nor barn; and God feeds them.  Of how much more value are you than the birds?  And which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?  If you then are not able to do the least, why are you ANXIOUS for the rest?”
Okay Okay I think!!!   I then read on ...and there is a scripture from 12:29: 

“And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind.”

Nor have an anxious mind...I'm getting it...I'm getting it!  I did take note of the whole remember to listen line.  But the whole line of anxieties sprouting up like mushrooms.  That's a visual!  So I think on the whole visual thing.  Have I mentioned the Power Thoughts I have been reading and trying to implement...thus if you are having Power Thoughts...I am assuming there would not be room for an ANXIOUS MIND especially fungus anxieties!  

My anxiousness really seemed to subside...Although, I would ask for prayers from those around...prayers for strength and prayers for peace for one more day...of being with all that will be  to going through the emotion in talking about losing a special person to us--our Jay Bird.

And I add a song that just seems to be one to add...I love Alison Krauss...

BUT I have changed my anxiety to something else...I am anxious for sure...yes I get to have one little Firecracker for the weekend!!   Now I am anxious for that and it is one that I am happy to keep with me!!!  

So the clock strikes I should be anxious to get to bed...sweet dreams...


Sunday, October 14, 2012

It will go...

And here it is another weekend has passed...they seem to go quickly and I even had a three day weekend...Though I must confess I am okay with this week being over.   Friday was not my flex Friday but it was a Firecracker Friday--my favorite!

Tim and Heather took in going to Court while I had the "dirty job" and stayed and waited for a sleeping Izzy Bell!    Somebody has to do it...and so thankful it is me sometimes.   It seemed to be another Jay day.   According to one Shepherd when talking of when we should leave home he determines we need to go early...we need to "leave before breakfast"...and so that is what we did.  As we drove north on 71 the sunrise was amazing...I took pics along the way...well as good a pic as you can get going...I'll say well at least 65...

The horizon seemed to be shining "red and blues" as Izzy and her mama call the lights on the police cars...almost a reminder of one special officer that we all had on our minds.   And as if the beauty of the sky was not enough...there amongst the beautiful sky was the moon and one lone bright shining star...perhaps a planet...but to me it seemed to symbolize more.  I look at the moon and it seems to be a reminder of the words in Jerehiah 29:13..."And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart". 

So I include a couple of the shots.  The first one doesn't show the shape.  It seems to be as though a scribble across the sky but it reminds me...BE STILL!  That in my motion...I lose focus.

The next one actually WHILE driving...seems to capture the moon and you can see the star but it does not show how very bright it seemed to shine.   It's brightness seems to make me think of my favorite son-in-law...and I am reminded of one little "Peanut" telling me one night when not being able to see the moon replies when I tell her that we can see it at my house and she tells me, "the moon and stars will meet us there."    It just seems to be poetry to me...words to keep in my heart...

In continuing on, it is as though we have a special show on the eastern horizon that is created just for us.   The reds and blues begin to layer upon each other and then the light bearing up seems to take on almost angel wings.    In viewing all of this I tend to go into deep thought--sometimes a million mile journey in a small amount of time.   But I ask the shepherd I wonder how it will go...and in the wisdom of this guy in his own "Grandma Ivy" style of answering...he replies, "It will go."    Just a simple we will take it how it comes instead of my talking it in circles to come to the same conclusion...and he was right...IT WENT...and the very hope of not having to go through a trial was answered...

Upon arrival at Izzy's house, I sat reading and journaling and waiting for one little girl to come downstairs...and down she came just bopping and talking as though she had been awake for hours...she is not always such a morning person...but seems to say this day...look out world here I come.  We talked of what she wanted for breakfast  and she says pancakes...she hops up on the couch and I in the chair when she says something about not knowing it was a breakfast day and then seems to laugh at her own comments as though it is such a funny thing she has told me.  She then proceeds to tell me to text Grandad and tell him what she said--he will like it she tells me.   And sometimes she seems as though she is much older than her 3 young years.

 After some discussion we decide we will make waffles...I tell her that it is her daddy's waffle maker and as she sits there watching me she says I think I have had these before...a wong time ago...and I tell her that her daddy used to make her waffles sometimes...and I hope that she will keep thoughts of special memories with her it those that are shared or ones she remembers  from a "wong" time ago...

She has about finished her breakfast when her mama and Oppy return...and after some time of talking we begin to talk of lunch to which one little Firecracker says mac and cheese...well those who know her know that very often her choice for at home meals is mac and cheese.   However, she is sharing a meal with Oppy who likes to eat out and so after naming different places we decide on Jenny's...with discussion of mac and cheese for supper.   The waitress comes to our table and Izzy informs her that she needs cheese with her chips...and the waitress hurries off to get it going before taking our drink orders.  In looking at the menu of Mexican food fare...I decide maybe to have a cheeseburger...I know I know...but it sounded good.   So the waitress comes and asks what we will have...well sometimes Miss Isabel will not speak up or decide what she wants but this day she says in her most grown up voice very matter of factly...I will have a cheeseburger with cheese and a bun.

And it somehow seemed important to her to let this waitress know.   Sometimes I think we just assume others will know the obvious...but she was not taking any if this girl would not know for sure that a cheeseburger should in fact have CHEESE AND A BUN!   After confirming her meal order she was then asked what she would like to drink and in such a grown up voice says, "Do you have water?"   And I marvel at her maturity and think how amazing it is watching her grow up so fast right before our eyes...and right there I think of how she is here and in no time she will be her mama's age...the time goes so quickly.

She is such a combo of her dad and her mom...but this day she had lots of her daddy going on as she kept us laughing most of the day.   Her mom said that the other night she explained that maybe Jake and Amy were coming...that she texted Jake on her pretend phone and informed her mom that her and Jake wanted pizza.  I love it as her mom is not a fan of pizza but her daddy always liked his pizza...makes me laugh as Miss Izzy figures that if her and Jake want could one say no!   And how she thinks it is a good idea to just have a pizza party...this is her daddy indeed.   It makes one smile that though she may not always remember...he is just a part of her that she just lives it...

Later, her mom was on the couch when Izzy proceeds to just give her kisses and hugs and her mom says oh I love when this little girl is here...and as Izzy walks off she says and not the angry child.   We laugh at her just spitting this out as we do not know where it came from.  And I think how here a three year old realizes that many of us do in fact have an angry child lirking inside us...but never acknowledge the fact that we do.  

So the time together with our girls seems to fly by and the day has passed and we start discussing supper to which one little Firecracker tells her mom, mac and cheese...don't you remember!   Perhaps you had to be there...but sometimes.   Oh the adventures they may have!  And though we had made the most of the day...after supper, it was time to leave and so I snapped pictures of one little Firecracker as she plays hide and seek with the blanket...and her giggle echoes as I snap a picture of her in her "daddy" shirt...the one we had said that daddy's picture was on her heart...and she tells me that is not where her heart is...her heart is on the side...but she seems to have such a joy about her...and she sends us off with kisses and hugs and then says I didn't give pounds and so we come back and give pounds...and she hollars off her porch as we drive off yelling bye!  

And as I am writing this I get a text saying that Izzy thinks the king on Cinderella snores like I guess King Oppy it is!   And I smile thinking how blessed we are to have such joy in our lives.

And so here I am back to today...the shepherd and I just hung out at home today with no specific agenda... it was such a beautiful day...those days you are thankful to live in Colorado and can't imagine any other place you would rather be.   The gentle breeze blowing through the windows as I finished up my reading on Power Thoughts by Joyce Meyers seem to blow a positive air throughout the house.   I worked on the questions asked, and I thought of things that will help me focus on Power Thoughts.   And I think about even though I sometimes do in fact listen...I do not always follow through or I do get bogged down with thoughts that might not be as positive as others.   So with that I think of wanting to work on ridding some of the "clutter" in my it that around me or that in my head.   I have this desire to wash my windows around my kitchen table as if perhaps an exercise in washing my thoughts...that though the flies may come back they are clean right now.   And I am trying to convince myself that the wind has stopped blowing dirt for the year.

But on such a pretty should just take in and breathe in the beauty of the day.   The shepherd helped me rinse off screens...rinsing me a little in the process...all on accident I am sure.   After he finished chores, we then journeyed on a walk and took in how much the colors are has to love the beauty of seeing a cottonwood changing its colors...I put a pic from last I didn't take my camera...and I think yes here we are in our fall...time flying so fast and I think of wondering how it will go...I think again of the Shepherd telling me...IT WILL GO...but I stop and think IT'S ALL GOOD!   Perhaps I didn't get a bike ride guess I gave you one tonight.


Thursday, October 11, 2012


So waiting to find out...and you know me and my patience...and so I laugh at today's My Utmost For His Highest...Just seemed to nudge me...and also made me funny as a friend says RIGHT OUT LOUD! 

God’s Silence— Then What?

October 11, 2012
"When He heard that he was sick, He stayed two more days in the place where He was —John 11:6
Has God trusted you with His silence— a silence that has great meaning? God’s silences are actually His answers. Just think of those days of absolute silence in the home at Bethany! Is there anything comparable to those days in your life? Can God trust you like that, or are you still asking Him for a visible answer? God will give you the very blessings you ask if you refuse to go any further without them, but His silence is the sign that He is bringing you into an even more wonderful understanding of Himself. Are you mourning before God because you have not had an audible response? When you cannot hear God, you will find that He has trusted you in the most intimate way possible— with absolute silence, not a silence of despair, but one of pleasure, because He saw that you could withstand an even bigger revelation. If God has given you a silence, then praise Him— He is bringing you into the mainstream of His purposes. The actual evidence of the answer in time is simply a matter of God’s sovereignty. Time is nothing to God. For a while you may have said, “I asked God to give me bread, but He gave me a stone instead” (see Matthew 7:9). He did not give you a stone, and today you find that He gave you the “bread of life” (John 6:35).
A wonderful thing about God’s silence is that His stillness is contagious— it gets into you, causing you to become perfectly confident so that you can honestly say, “I know that God has heard me.” His silence is the very proof that He has. As long as you have the idea that God will always bless you in answer to prayer, He will do it, but He will never give you the grace of His silence. If Jesus Christ is bringing you into the understanding that prayer is for the glorifying of His Father, then He will give you the first sign of His intimacy— silence."

This morning on my way to work...I heard this song...haven't heard it for a long time and actually never really had thought about it...I think of hero...that perhaps we all have hero in us...Just made me think of Jay...that sometimes just being who we are and what we think is the right thing...makes a hero...Boy that boy sure is on my mind...

Heard this one I love his voice...Big Daddy Weave...I've been Redeemed...has just been in my head so now I put in yours...

So I say sweet I will go ride my bike elsewhere...BUT I get to see a Firecracker tomorrow!!  Oh ya!   Happy Dance!


Happy Birthday Aum...

Happy Birthday to a very special person who shares my mom's birthday...Autumn Sheridan...I mean Lorensen !!

Such a special person to me and so thankful for you.   I have loved watching you grow and now here you are an old married lady...

Love you lots and thinking of you on your birthday and hope it was a special one...just like you!!



Wednesday, October 10, 2012

A Jay day...

I awoke this morning as though my name was being called...and so I got up knowing today was a special day...I was not sure how it would be...but I knew it would...I went to my kitchen table to find the verse on one of my calendars..."Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trails of many kinds." James 1:2.   Now I might have to work on that one...But it seems to stand out all the same...

I went to read the Jesus Calling...

"TRUST ME ENOUGH to let things happen without striving to predict or control them.  Relax, and refresh yourself in the Light of My everlasting Love.  My Love-Light never dims, yet you are often unaware of My radiant Presence.  When you project yourself into the future, rehearsing what you will do or say, you are seeking to be self-sufficient: to be adequate without My help.  This is a subtle sin--so common that is usually slips by unnoticed.

The alternative is to live fully in the present, depending on Me each moment.  Rather than fearing your inadequacy, rejoice in My abundant supply.  Train your mind to seek My help continually, even when you feel competent to handle something by yourself.  Don't divide your life into things you can do by yourself and things that require My help.  Instead, learn to rely on Me in every situation.  This discipline will enable you to enjoy life more and to face each day confidently."
Psalm 37: 3-6 and Philippians 4:19 were the scriptures given...
 So I went to Psalm 37 to look up the scriptures...but the whole chapter took me in...

Psalm 37

Of David.

1 Do not fret because of those who are evil
or be envious of those who do wrong;
2 for like the grass they will soon wither,
like green plants they will soon die away.
3 Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
your vindication like the noonday sun.
7 Be still before the Lord
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.
9 For those who are evil will be destroyed,
but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.
10 A little while, and the wicked will be no more;
though you look for them, they will not be found.
11 But the meek will inherit the land
and enjoy peace and prosperity.
12 The wicked plot against the righteous
and gnash their teeth at them;
13 but the Lord laughs at the wicked,
for he knows their day is coming.
14 The wicked draw the sword
and bend the bow
to bring down the poor and needy,
to slay those whose ways are upright.
15 But their swords will pierce their own hearts,
and their bows will be broken.
16 Better the little that the righteous have
than the wealth of many wicked;
17 for the power of the wicked will be broken,
but the Lord upholds the righteous.
18 The blameless spend their days under the Lord’s care,
and their inheritance will endure forever.
19 In times of disaster they will not wither;
in days of famine they will enjoy plenty.
20 But the wicked will perish:
Though the Lord’s enemies are like the flowers of the field,
they will be consumed, they will go up in smoke.
21 The wicked borrow and do not repay,
but the righteous give generously;
22 those the Lord blesses will inherit the land,
but those he curses will be destroyed.
23 The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
24 though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
25 I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
26 They are always generous and lend freely;
their children will be a blessing.
27 Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.
28 For the Lord loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.
Wrongdoers will be completely destroyed;
the offspring of the wicked will perish.
29 The righteous will inherit the land
and dwell in it forever.
30 The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom,
and their tongues speak what is just.
31 The law of their God is in their hearts;
their feet do not slip.
32 The wicked lie in wait for the righteous,
intent on putting them to death;
33 but the Lord will not leave them in the power of the wicked
or let them be condemned when brought to trial.
34 Hope in the Lord
and keep his way.
He will exalt you to inherit the land;
when the wicked are destroyed, you will see it.
35 I have seen a wicked and ruthless man
flourishing like a luxuriant native tree,
36 but he soon passed away and was no more;
though I looked for him, he could not be found.
37 Consider the blameless, observe the upright;
a future awaits those who seek peace.
38 But all sinners will be destroyed;
there will be no future for the wicked.
39 The salvation of the righteous comes from the Lord;
he is their stronghold in time of trouble.
40 The Lord helps them and delivers them;
he delivers them from the wicked and saves them,
because they take refuge in him.
I realize that if not for Jesus I would not be righteous...but because of Him I am...No I do not claim to be perfect...far from it...Amazing sweet the sound...that saved a wretch like me...and so I inlcude Todd Agnew's - Grace Like Rain...a take off of an old favorite...
...and earlier I had went to capture the sunrise...a beautiful one indeed...and so I include the other verse for the day Philippians 4:19 with it...
And while taking a picture...yes me strolling around in the yard in my slippers and housecoat...I looked up and there is was...the moon...and it always serves as a reminder...this scripture comes each time I see the moon...a Selah if you will... (Selah...a word that says Pause and calmly think of that...)
I seem to be getting lots of combinations of photos and scripture...I love putting them together...As I said it is a Jay day...he is deeply on my mind...
I was given this scripture today...
 "Fear not, for I am with you: Be not dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, Yes I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
Ahhh Jaybird we love and miss you...Thank you for being a part of our lives...
and 4EVER in our hearts!
Prayers for strength...prayers for love...

Sunday, October 7, 2012

It's not your party...

[If there seems to be inconsistency in time...I wrote this two different days...all on the same bike!]

And now I sit here curled up by the fire with a the softest blue blanket that was made with love from one special "Blue" Bonnie...and I am playing with pictures.  Was a good day...celebrated a milestone with a special niece to be!   Congratulations Celisse...what an accomplishment...good to have a nurse in the family.

The shepherd had put on a pot of chili yesterday while I was away...and so even though the weather is cold...this is how cold weather should be appreciated.   It is funny when the first cold snap comes in and we are thinking it will freeze and just how very cold it is...then we endure a little winter and we soon are yearning some days for weather to be "freezing".   But for now we think of how cold it is.   Isn't that how it is...often we think how "bad" we got it and then realize that we have it so good.

The last few days have been busy as I had headed to the big city of Aurora for work and since traveling through Limon...just had Mary drop me off and spent the night with my girls since the following day was Firecracker Flex Friday.   When we arrived one little Firecracker was curled up on her Aunt Autumn's lap fast asleep in quite the get-up.  Yes it probably was an Aunt Aum outfit...a princess dress with her sweats still under and then her pink princess boots from Aunt Autumn.   But then she woke up and with much wrestling and "wallering" with Aunt Aum...she was ready for fun.   I caught several pics but this one just seemed to just make one just feel the JOY!

It amazes me how one little girl has such a gift of making others feel love and joy...Oh she is a three year old and at times has the characteristics of a three year old but in thinking about it so do I...and she has much more reason to do so.   Perhaps I put here what I thought was perhaps another writing...but part of it I include.   Since I am fessing up to the whole three year old thing!    I know I am pretty sensitive and probably at times sense more than is even there.   When things go on...I automatically think well why is this happening?  Why am I going through this?   And often I am reminded...IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU!   Well the other morning as I was going to pick up Mary to head to Aurora I was listening to Pastor Al on the radio and he was talking about the prodigal son's brother.    How he was whining if you will.  Here I have been here all the I have done this....look at what he did...and Pastor Al had said "This ain't your party!"  

Isn't that how we do at times...try to make something our it pity or otherwise.   That it isn't even our party!   And so I want to think about that.  I am starting to read Power Thoughts by Joyce Meyers and am working on a positive attitude...which now takes me back to one little Peanut in a princess dress and sweat pants...dancing to the drum she hears beating!   How she so often chooses to LIVE and LOVE.    What examples the little ones can give us.  Her and I were playing hide and seek.  She was on the floor and said you can't see me.   So I told her I put on my special glasses and she just laughed with such a big belly laugh.  Then she put on hers to see me.   She then went to hide her eyes and I was in the chair I took her hoola-hoop and held it in front of me.  She comes out and says, "Ahma you not hiding."   To which I reply you can't see me I am behind the hoola-hoop.  So she immediately pulls it away and finds me.  

This morning as I was thinking on this.   I was thinking how at times we think that we are hiding...from others...ourselves...from God...when in fact all that hides us is a hoolahoop.   But then I thought God has those special glasses of Love that He sees us through...for that I am thankful!   And thankful for the many lessons I learn from one little Firecracker...

So perhaps a rambling but so enjoyed my time with my girls.  On Friday while others had to go for a meeting with attorney's...I was given the tough duty of THE PARK!    We traveled to Washington D.C. on the train...we raced cars...teeter tottered...swung...and even went down the worm slide a few times (no not me!  Visions of me stuck in the worm slide are not a pretty one)...I thought how I got the good gig...was a little chilly but still playable.   The morning was a little chillier as I had spent Thursday night and woke up to snow...well a grapple I suppose...

Friday night I went with the girls to Limon Homecoming and got to watch Miss Shonda NOT play ;) (sure looked like her).  Then my ride, Lance, showed up and we even checked out the bonfire...not sure if Izzy liked it or all the "red and blues" out and about.   A lot of police and community support for the festivities.   Miss Izzy Bell was given the choice for supper Jenny's, IHOP, or Wendy's.   To which she replied McDonald's!   Yes this girl does march to her own drum...

Enjoyed my ride home as I got to visit with Lance all the way...yes this had to be a highlight for him as I know how much he likes to "visit".   Also, got to ride with him to Pueblo.  I have probably exceeded my quota.   Like I said...we took in celebration of Celisse (our nephew Brendon's bride to be) getting  her RN so proud of her!   Lots of time and hard work...admire those who can go into the health care field but...count me out...

So today...made some lasagna with the shepherds homemade sauce...With the down time from the knee surgery...he has put up tomatoes and chili' glad to see him healing up.   So decided to finish up this blog I started writing last night.  Seem to start them but don't finish them.   Maybe something I should work on in my Power Thoughts!   Perhaps not just Power Thoughts but Power GETTERDONE's...POWER FOCUS!   So enjoy the day...was reminded of a great scripture this morning at my kitchen table and so I put it on one of the pictures I took...I think are these choke cherries?


Monday, October 1, 2012

WHY...why must we cry...

And just like yesterday...I am taken back as I drove to work today I noticed a parade of cars and thought of the family today of Mary Ricard who was killed as she worked at the Department of Corrections.  Today was her funeral...I had to go through Ordway and noticed how many vehicles there were...many law enforcement vehicles...all showing respect for someone who lost their life in the line of duty.

I read on Sgt. Mary Ricard and seen that she had been a baker and then went to work at the I drove home with a beautiful sunset in the distance...perhaps Mary's sunset...But as I drove by the prison...I thought of the darkness and hate that filled those walls...and thought WHY must some take others lives as though they were nothing...and words of a song came to me...May not be one I share other than the words of Why...why must we cry...

I journeyed down the road and thought of Jay and again...WHY?   I continued home and passed by where two little babies stay and thought WHY?   Certain things just make one's heart feel the loss and pain...but I so admire those that remain behind that pick up the pieces and carry on as those that are gone would want them to.  

I think of my weekend and spending time with my brother and family.   Hitching a ride with my daughter and one little Firecracker over to the western slope (which I must say the Grand Mesa was beautiful).   Of my daughter and nephew having a little mishap on the Razer...a few bumps, bruises and stitches later...they are healing up.  But the part that sticks with me here is the texts I got tonight as I talked to Heather who had thought she might play some volleyball but really shouldn't be...and I am reminded why I love those who may have just seemed like the stream of cars...but we are reminded of the support.   Some may not think much...but I do!   There was Jake...who holds such a special place in my heart and seems to be a special one God put in Heather and Izzy's life just because.   Who I take was being protective of my girl...of the Chief and wife who came by to check up on her.   It is these things that say, "I love you and I loved the one you lost"!  Not all are blessed with such a support system...but I am thankful for the one that we have been given...

It is my hope that those who were Sgt. Ricards people are there for her people as I include one of the pics of the amazing sunset...The trees seemed to be as important a part of this as the sky...I see strength there...I pray for strength for those in need of.   I think of those who have been taken and though I wonder...I pray for those who are left behind...they are the ones Lord we pray for Your strength...