"And so I am giving a new commandment to you now--love each other just as much as I love you. Your strong love for each other will prove to the world that you are my disciples."And so I keep reading and there underlined as well is 14:6:
"Jesus told him, 'I am the Way--yes and the Truth and the Life. No one gets to the Father except by means of Me."And then again underlined is 14:18:
"No I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm--I will come to you."And this one I think of my Dad and how he always seemed to be one to care for widows and orphans...and I have a sadness because my daughter and granddaughter are without a husband and a daddy. But I seem to keep reading as though there is more for me. I try to take comfort that it says I WILL NOT ABANDON YOU!!! And this begins the tie into the BROTHERHOOD...because God and Jay worked on building a brotherhood of men that would stand in for him and I have some pictures that I will include but know that there are so many more that are standing there as well. At the funeral there is a picture I cherish of Izzy walking hand in hand with Grandad and P-Pa and they are each holding a hand letting her walk...but if she chooses to be lifted they each lift her up and this seemed to say so much to me that I know both these men will be there for Jay's girls!
But I go back to my reading and this is the part that brought the tears....but touched my heart. I have read John before and though I know that I have so much to learn this one took on such a newness. Because underlined again...I know that I have read this before and underlined all of these because they said something to me at least one time or another...but I do not remember why...but it read in John 15:10-11...
"When you obey me you are living in my love, just as I obey my Father and live in His love. I have told you this so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes, your cup of joy will overflow!"And I think about how it is hard to have JOY right now...but it is no longer underlined but I read on and 15:12 says:
"I demand that you love each other as much as I love you."And so I keep reading and copying to my journal as though an urgency that I want to know more and there is 15:13...
"And here is how to measure it--"So I continue writing as though this is all new and I do not read ahead until I come to this and I stop in my tracks and yes....have a few tears. Because I am wondering HOW DO YOU MEASURE? And right there it finishes:
"the greatest love is shown when a person lays down his life for his friends;"And though this makes you think of Christ...I also feel that it is talking of Jay as well...that in choosing the career he chose, there are many a time that these individuals are willing to put their life on the line for others...sometimes for ones they have never met! So this is even more where the "brotherhood" connects and I pick up where I started writing prior...
I said that Jay had two families...and that he did...his birth and marriage family...but also his brotherhood of law enforcement family. It is an amazing thing to behold the connection between these men and women...a bond that many never get to experience or even observe close up. (But a bond that we should all take note of...that we build a bond with our "brothers'.)
Jay gave some of his fellow "brother's" a "challenge coin" that had the following prayer...coincidence...I don't think so! And these men were joined by many others vowing to be there for Jay's wife and child. The words written were as follows:
"When I start my tour of duty God,
Wherever crime may be,
as I walk the darkened streets alone,
Let me be close to Thee.
Please give me understanding with both the young and old.
Let me listen with attention until their story's told.
Let me never make a judgment in a rash or callous way,
but let me hold my patience let each man have his say.
Lord if some dark and dreary night,
I must give my life,
Lord, with your everlasting love
This song didn't just stand out to me but I am sure many others...a friend used it on her blog as well.... http://beefwatcher.blogspot.com/2011/03/scrambled-mind-today.html
And don't get me wrong....there are plenty of women standing by as well....but that is another time...so I end this as I started...love one another...I love you!
So I am sorry if I still seem to be writing a little sad but still processing..I pray for strength...and I hear the words of Chief Yowell..."Strong in--Strong out." Somedays I just repeat that to myself....but here is to JoY and so I share a picture of Jay and a "best man" (Gordan Nall) and I raise a toast to all the "brothers"...Thank you and God bless! I learned a new acronym "EOW" is end of watch...but I feel that Jay and God are still watching over us.
|Okay I still smile thinking about these two! A so much younger looking Jay but good times with good friends!|